Not Alone.

Reading YouTube comments on pregnancy related videos:

It helps to know I'm not alone ❤ I'm around 6 weeks pregnant and been nauseous all day every day, napping 3-4 times a day, eating every hour or so to stop the gastric juice discomfort but still feeling like vomiting after eating, can't drink plain water at times or nausea kicks in. Soups are my safe space for now – but onions in soup is enemy 🤢. Just over a week of these symptoms and I'm already tired of feeling this way, it feels difficult 🥺🥺 May God give me strength 🫶

Pretty Little Baby.

I dreamt of a baby

Big eyes, milk chocolate skin

On the fairer side

Maybe khaki-ish

Almost my skin

Chubby and healthy.

Boy — it felt like.

Socially Awkward.

All my friends

All the people I know

Standing tall

on mountain tops

But here I am

I am still

Calmly treading

The valley paths

I used to wish

To be there too

A sign of success

A sign of strength

Then my perspective changed

And I am content

With the river's cool

And fishes aplenty

One thing I do regret

The friendships I didn't know how to tend

The conversations I didn't expand

The relationships unpruned.

Step by Step.

1. Leave the cause of stress or distraction that is pulling you away from God.

2. Ask for God's help for your helplessness. You are utterly unable to save yourself from sin and its consequences.

3. Abilities recovering:

- Memory

- Living in the present

- A sober mind from the drunkenness of the world and all it has to offer

In progress:

- Full acknowledgement of the constant presence of God

- Full joy

- Full peace

- Full empathy

End result:

- Fear of God

- Wisdom

Enabling you to:

- Love God

- Love others

Don't Trample.

I thought it only meant

Repeating the same offences

to a point of no return

If that was even possible

— to utterly take for granted.

But that day I realised

that it could also mean

To resist its healing

No matter how justifiable or noble

you think your reasons are

— whether out of guilt or shame

In this way I wonder,

could this be "going on

sinning deliberately"?

Don't turn away

because you cannot fulfil

God's expectations.

He already knew that:

We all fall short of His glory.

That's why He sent Jesus

to the cross

— for us.

The only way to hell

is to trample.

[Context in Hebrews 10:29]

The Depths of Your Love.

A warmth from the fireplace

Little feet tread the carpet surface

Swiftly passing by big sofas

Moving almost without a trace

He takes some soil from inside the pots

And arranged them neatly on the floor

Until a dozen mud homes were formed

And the floor was no more than rot

Grandma came, and grandma saw,

With only kind words did she whisper

And to a table of steamy warm lunch

She carried him from the living chamber

Afterward she cleaned up the hall

Knowing he had purposely done it all

Without a judgement passed she smiled

While he innocently trodded off once more

And that kid is me, that kid is you,

When we make a big mess in life

And that grandma is Him who is above

With incomprehensible love.

Let Them Go.

We start as clean slates

And stain each other as we age

So many marks received

So many marks I gave

So many people we have met

So many did not stay

Some because of different ways

Some of contact frayed

I always feel it is my fault

Because I wished to stay

But many times could not afford

Or maybe it's an excuse too lame

Holding onto guilt and guilt

It's time the hand to wave

It could be your fault or mine

Or none or both to blame

So can we start aclean again?