New Song.

When I was walking through,

The valley of the shadow of doubts,

Though sometimes it felt even of death,

With still the pain in my blade,

It felt enormously difficult to tread.

I thought the days to recovery would be long,

But to You still I firmly held on,

Within two weeks I didn't expect,

To be back on my feet and on You my heart reset.

Though the road down was not just ten days,

But a period of weeks avoiding You at bay.

So I'm grateful that You hear my cry,

Even when I have been rude to defy,

After all Your goodness have been shown to me,

But on this wary road our memories ran dry,

That is why this path I will now shy away,

And remember to forgive myself as well,

Since forgiveness You did not deny;

It was my emotions that kept me from You after that;

Though these may seem like time wasted,

The lessons learned are an invaluable asset.

Tis' are the days I want to remember,

How Your mercy poured out on a girl undeserving,

When all but my doubts had begun to shatter,

Still to me You clutched on as I called out Your Name.

Tis' are the times of my greatest trial,

When physical pain and social anxiety had me totally maimed,

In the midst of the mess when my faith had waned,

From seeking out truth on a wary lane.

So to You I give all again and again,

I am the side and You are the main,

With whatever time I have remain,

Let me live a life worthily called Your saint.

Only with You do I find meaning,

Peace, hope, love, joy, and beginning,

Because of You, I refuse to keep sinning,

Though still imperfect, but secure in Your training.

One day finally our tears will be gone,

When from heaven You return strong,

Suffering, disease, and hurt no longer borne,

That day finally we'll sing a new song.