Saturday, May 10, 2025

Wedding Seat Regrets.

If I don't write this out
or share it somehow
I fear I will feel this sense of injustice
of potential misunderstanding
until I cease in my body

Yes, I have felt it and guilty
since November

There was a total of about 150 seats
available for my side

90 of which were taken by my family
About 10 for my bridesmaids and closest friends

Out of 50 left, about 20 were from church

Remaining just 30 seats,
for which I invited my colleagues
from job 1 to the current
and those I've kept some touch with
from secondary school

So many important ppl I did not invite
because we lacked the space
but the greater regret is not messaging them prior
to let them know

I guess I wasn't sure where I stood,
because some of us, we haven't talked in years

And some I didn't know how to explain
because the reason is to please someone

To my connect group:
my intention at the start
was to invite everyone
but there were some objections
so at the last
when the temper has cooled
and the space allowed,
we did invite—the timing distasteful regardless

To my secondary school friends:
I couldn't invite someone
a pivotal person in our connections
so how could I invite the rest
without being questioned

To my uni coursemates:
I think you already know
that I am comfortable with
just a handful of you
but if I invite one or two
I'd have to invite everyone
which the hall can't fit

Others I regret not being able to invite:
1. CF SMK Seafield
2. PCV
3. SOM 2013
4. I hope I missed no one

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