Forgive Me.

Unforgiveness

Like black paint

Has crept into my heart

I had let it in

I saw it coming

I welcomed it

I said "Hello"

"Enter by the front door"

I hated the smell

Of the chemical

It was toxic

Brutal for my lungs

But I let it sit in

I thought it was okay

For me to paint black

the person called me

I thought it was wrong

to assume they'd forgiven me

That I could, no, should not

forgive myself

But I was wrong

I am not higher than God

Who has forgiven all my sins

every time I repent

sincerely

Patting myself

I say

I was wrong

I didn't know better

But to forgive me

is their choice

and out of my control

What I have control over

is whom I forgive

And so I must forgive

myself

Lest I live a life of burden

for something they might have forgotten

And so I lifted

these guilt

to the Judge

of all

And the paint

was washed

away

When I meet you face to face

May I have courage to apologise

And whatever your response, embrace

For my petty mistakes which I feared hurt you

For tonight

I forgive

me.